This world . . . is filled with trials. It’s filled with parents who divorce, with fathers who disappear, with friends who betray or move away. It is filled with heartaches and suicide and abuse and cancer and death–filled with so much brokenness. The brokenness which comes as a side-effect of sin. This world needed a savior, for there was no other way:
Then Jesus went with them to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to his disciples, “Sit here, while I go over there and pray.” And taking with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, he began to be sorrowful and troubled. Then he said to them, “My soul is very sorrowful, even to death; remain here, and watch with me.” And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.”And he came to the disciples and found them sleeping. And he said to Peter, “So, could you not watch with me one hour? Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Again, for the second time, he went away and prayed, “My Father, if this cannot pass unless I drink it, your will be done.” And again he came and found them sleeping, for their eyes were heavy. So, leaving them again, he went away and prayed for the third time, saying the same words again. Then he came to the disciples and said to them, “Sleep and take your rest later on. See, the hour is at hand, and the Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. Rise, let us be going; see, my betrayer is at hand” Matthew 26:36-46.
This world needed a savior, yet that savior–Jesus–he prayed, “Daddy, Father if there’s another way, I beg you, let it be done instead. Please Father . . .” For he knew . . . Jesus knew what was to come. He knew how he would be given an unfair trial. He knew of the whips and the nails and the agony he would suffer upon that cross:
And they went to a place called Gethsemane. And he said to his disciples, “Sit here while I pray.” And he took with him Peter and James and John, and began to be greatly distressed and troubled. And he said to them, “My soul is very sorrowful, even to death. Remain here and watch.” And going a little farther, he fell on the ground and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from him. And he said, “Abba, Father, all things are possible for you. Remove this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will.” And he came and found them sleeping, and he said to Peter, “Simon, are you asleep? Could you not watch one hour? Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” And again he went away and prayed, saying the same words. And again he came and found them sleeping, for their eyes were very heavy, and they did not know what to answer him. And he came the third time and said to them, “Are you still sleeping and taking your rest? It is enough; the hour has come. The Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. Rise, let us be going; see, my betrayer is at hand” Mark 14:32-42.
He knew. Yet, Jesus still chose to pray, “But not my will, but Yours be done.” Jesus was in distress, he was in agony. I even believe, like how it is portrayed in The Passion of the Christ, that he was in the midst of a spiritual battle. For if Satan could get Christ to fall, to give up on humanity, there would be no salvation.
Jesus was in so much pain and grief that blood was literally leaking from his pores:
And he came out and went, as was his custom, to the Mount of Olives, and the disciples followed him. And when he came to the place, he said to them, “Pray that you may not enter into temptation.” And he withdrew from them about a stone’s throw, and knelt down and prayed, saying, “Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done.” And there appeared to him an angel from heaven, strengthening him. And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly; and his sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground. And when he rose from prayer, he came to the disciples and found them sleeping for sorrow, and he said to them, “Why are you sleeping? Rise and pray that you may not enter into temptation” Luke 22:39-46.
In the midst of perhaps one of Jesus’ greatest moments of grief on the eve of his crucifixion, he pleaded to His Father for another way to save humanity. Yet, in the midst of his pain, knowing what he would suffer, he still chose to go through with the Father’s plan.
Hillary Scott, has taken this scene and combined it with an experience in her own life to create a beautiful song, which expresses our grief, our questions to God during the harshest of times. For in the midst of the trials, the pain, the heartache which God allows, He works through it, and uses it to shape His plan. Evil is not greater than God, which is why He can take the results from the harshest of actions, and use them to grow the most beautiful of flowers. Yet, in the moment we do not see this because of our hurts. This song embodies pain, confusion, the hurt which comes from the trials which we all face. Yet, it also confesses what we should ask for the strength to say, what Jesus said in the midst of his agony, his pleading for another way, his tears, the words we should say after we plead our case to the Father: “Thy will be done.”